Pregnancy

      It is been sometimes since I posted in my blog. The new state of my life has again inspired me to play my fingers on my keyboard and keep the inspiration of putting words together alive. It is always magical to experience how the new day of my life unfold the mysteries of each day. I guess these mysteries make life worth living and exciting.
      Ten weeks ago, I discovered that I am going to be a mom for the first time and at the ripe age of 34. It is a very overwhelming occasion because I never expect that I am capable of carrying new life in my womb. However, I am blessed with the opportunity and the joy is beyond measures. I knew very well that my pregnancy happened while I am in a whirlwind relationship with a man I just met. This is, I guess is the part that a bit hard to digest specially for somebody like me who used to have a very "strange" view of intimate relationship. As I said, it happened and I am happy with it.
      The news had been a surprise to everybody who have known me as a person. Many thought (including my dad) I was just joking but when they realized I was serious they were in awe and maybe forced o be happy with the news. The uniform reaction of my circle when  broke the news had brought me into retrospect to look back into the life I used to live before I got pregnant. I used to live a very straight forward life which focused mainly in my job and few personal caprices like traveling and volunteering to any organizations i can be useful with. Those moments had brought me countless friend all over the world. I enjoyed every moment I spent with people whom I accepted in my life as part of my vocation.
      Eventually, in the unforgettable decision of exploring my curiosity with somebody within a different dimension of acquaintance and relationship, I got pregnant. My pregnancy led me to another kind of human interaction and self reflection.  I have learned that falling in love with another person will just happen in a wink of an eyelash and my life changed dramatically. I have to stop and pause to see the pros and cons of my next step. I become more careful with every action I made. Most of all, I am happy that the person who is the father of my child is a person I love so much. It does not matter if he does not have the same regards as i do to him as long as I can proudly tell my coming child that she/he was created because Mommy loves his daddy so much.